a couple questions

Defensiveness is really an emotional form of self preservation. So why do I continue to be defensive? What do I feel I need defended from? Is the Father big enough to be my defender? Am I ready to lay down the walls and barbed wire fence for the surrounding arms of my loving Father? Will I give up my moat for a river of love that flows from the throne of my heart. These are just a couple questions swirling inside my head.