seek first

Lately I've been reading through the Gospels. Right now I'm in the book of John. One of the things that really strikes me is the single-mindedness of Jesus towards His Father. It's incredible and challenging. Jesus's whole life was centered around His Father. His first thought wasn't, "What about me?" It was always, "What is the Father doing?" This "Father first" mentality is hardly seen in today's society and is scandalously evident in much of the modern church.

Could it be that in our (speaking of Christians) attempt to advance the Kingdom of God we've forgotten the King? Could be that instead of a kingdom built on the Rock of Jesus Christ we've been errecting a kingdom built on the sand of our desires?

Are we really living as children of the King or opportunists looking for a free meal?

a couple questions

Defensiveness is really an emotional form of self preservation. So why do I continue to be defensive? What do I feel I need defended from? Is the Father big enough to be my defender? Am I ready to lay down the walls and barbed wire fence for the surrounding arms of my loving Father? Will I give up my moat for a river of love that flows from the throne of my heart. These are just a couple questions swirling inside my head.